1 post tagged “nice”
Today I felt like screaming until there was no voice left. That's because today was one of those 'People Suck' kind of days. The two posts I discovered earlier (Ode to the Nice Girls and Ode to the Nice Guys)
are a great example. The more I read them, the more I was incensed by
how silly and sheeplike we can be sometimes... and the more I wished I
could have written those rants (*laughing*). Well, now I get to write
one of my own... So
growing up, I went through a period where I didn't trust guys as far as
I could throw them, thanks to one too many bad experiences. My father
(God rest his soul) and my brother were the only real exceptions to the
rule. It was just as well since being a heavyset girl in junior high
was a major guy repellent in itself. I had crushes on guys - none of
which saw me as dateable - and I didn't see myself as being good enough
for the ones I knew as friends, so I never asked. Eventually I started
talking to guys after a considerable weight loss and small confidence
boost, but it was still awkward. I didn't have my first kiss until the
age of 22, and what followed was nearly 8 months of weird uncertainty
and heavy petting from a guy that never really cared for me anyway.
There was a nice guy even then, and I passed him up 'cause I didn't
think I deserved him (though it was what I really wanted). Being the
stupid girl I was, I gave myself over to what I think of now as cold
seduction. He was the first and last guy I ever involved myself with. When
anyone loses their cool over hearing 'I couldn't go out with you,
you're like a sister/brother to me,' or the ever-reliable 'you're such
a great friend, it would be too weird,' I immediately relate to them,
and have the strong desire to applaud them. And I do 'cause it's truly
a crime (not to mention completely asinine) for a real treasure to be
passed up for a bunch of rhinestones. I know this 'cause I've made that
mistake with a few great guys. But knowing they're happy now is
fantastic. Being a little older, a little wiser, I know exactly what I
want and I'm ready to go after that treasure that I was so blind to
before. It's
understandable to be upset with those that don't see what you're worth.
But it's crazy to believe that an entire gender is that blind and that
insensitive that the only way to grab their attention is to be just
like them in their vapid (and very little) 'all-about-me' world...
especially when you've made it this far being the amazing person you
are! What kind of sense does that make? The fact is that there's always
someone to appreciate you for you. There aren't many around, and not
always single, but there's always hope for redemption. There's always a
chance for someone's blinders to fall from their eyes and see the inner
beauty that you possess. Yeah,
people do tend to suck for reasons none of us seem to fully understand.
Good news is that we're not all alike in personality - we all need the
basics of human survival. That includes love and belonging.
